I have talked about immaturity so much, and many times I have pointed out the immaturity of the person in your connections. Recently, I was seeing how easily the person can also leave the body in an immature way. In immaturity, the person stays with a curiosity thinking,” Are there past lives? Am I going to come back to life again?” or “I do not want to come back to the life again.” When the person begins to see its own immaturity in this thinking, he or she then sees that the immaturity is a strong identification with their own created forms. Each moment your thought is creating form. When you keep dwelling on one thought, that thought creates a strong identity and that becomes a force. This force makes you feel like you are possessed by something, but you are possessed by your own thoughts which you have been dwelling on so strongly.
In an immature way the person sometimes thinks he or she should not be living here or that he or she should die. The person can so easily identify their own self with what we call, thoughts of suicide, but it is a simple thought “this is right, I should not be living here” that the person is constantly dwelling on, saying and thinking. I am pointing toward the immaturity of the person because the thoughts become so powerful that the person completely becomes that thought and identity and believes “I should not be living here.” But the identity is not one thing, it is a ball full of anger, resentments and anxiety.
I feel that the person should not die or leave the body in an immature way. If you shed your body immaturely, where else is it going to go; of course, to that identity. That identity itself is haunting you back again. It says, “Come on, you are my property.” This is the immature thoughts creating such illusion in the person. This is why so many teachers are telling you ‘this form is your illusion’ but you do not understand this illusion. The person so strongly identifies with the thoughts and is saying “I am that.”
It is such nonsense to die that way. I am not saying that you have to reach a certain age of maturity. I am talking about the maturity of the person. You earn that maturity. You open your eyes where you can be fully lived, fully embraced in whatever you are – fully. Otherwise, the person is in the same rut of immaturity and is saying, “I do not want to come back, I do not want to come back, I do not want to come back” and at the same time there is a strong fist inside holding onto thoughts that are creating identities.
So many, many times the identities are not easily being seen by you. When we are here in the satsangs, this is where we are discovering and acknowledging more and more how strongly you are identifying yourself with forms, with hidden identities. If you are mature you are in rest, you are in peace, it is a natural state. The nature does not have the kind of brain to resist. It is not working according to the brain. It is working according to your own way of being – natural.
If something inside is still pushing you, still circling, wanting, wishing, and resisting. If something is still going on and on and on but very secretly, know that the more you drop your identity, the more you are able to be seen by you. Then you are earning natural maturity. Maturity is not going to be given to you by something. Maturity is when more of the dust is off. You are earning the maturity because you are returning back into the restfulness. You are returning back into the peace.
The mind has no clue what rest means and no clue what peace means. You see how many people are pretending they have no thoughts and are saying, “I am in the peace.” No, underneath there are strong identities alive. They can live this life with that pretending pose but inside there is so much immaturity. When more dust is off, the more you are dropping your identities and the more you are dropping your masks and earning more and more maturity.
I love it when each one of you are opening up and really acknowledging the stupidity of these identities. It is beautiful to see how helpful being together is, how much you can open and how much you can shed.
Open Talk 1 January 11-12 2020